Here's to the Night.

11.11.11

Tonight at 11:11 PM

Make the most EPIC wish ever.

Good luck.

:)

Right From My Heart.

My dad is an amazing guitarist.  Like blowyourfreakingmind good.  A couple years ago, for my birthday, my Mom and Dad purchased a guitar for me.  Ever since, my dad has patiently been teaching me.  I'm not as committed as I wish I would be.  I guess I'm afraid to dive into it.  But I'm not anymore. I love the guitar.  It's an amazing release.  This past weekend my dad helped me learn a couple songs, and I sure did fall in love. 

I seriously want to write a song.  But for me it has to be the perfect song.  I really respect artists whom write their own songs.  Example, John Mayer.  Look up all of his songs.  Holy ish, he did them ALL.  My favorite of his is Edge of Desire. You guys, it's lovely. 

Also, I want to curse out Cady Groves.  She is absolutely phenomenal.  Yet the thing with her, she always steals my lyrics, I swear it.  She speaks from my heart.  Look up her song "Life of a Pirate".. that is MY song.  Also, my new found favorite of hers, "Not Someone I'd Call my Friend".

.e.n.j.o.y.

At first I was really excited, then I wasn't so excited anymore.

Ya know that weird sensation when you KNOW things are about to change? For example. I remember graduating. I remember that slight feeling of dread because I KNEW change was here, and the scariest part of change, for me, is the unknown.  I didn't know what I was doing with my life, I didn't know where I was going, and mostly, I didn't know who I was.  That whole week of graduation, I was in freak out mode.  ANYTHING set me off; I seriously was so scared.  I really needed Peter Pan.

But look.... I graduated.  Even though I thought I wasn't ready for it, I did.  With my BEST friends beside me, we took that first step into the unknown.

I did it. Even though I kept repeating to myself, believing that I wasn't ready to move on, I did. The truth is I LOVED high school, but I would never go back.

Funny sidenote: I STILL don't know where I'm going. I STILL don't know what I want in life. And I STILL don't know exactly who I am.. but I'm okay with that.

Moral of the story: Sometimes being scared is all you have.  You may think that it isn't the right time to 'graduate', but if not now then when? Being a Super Senior is just as lame as not graduating at all.  Running from something that you are afraid of isn't right either. The right thing is taking the step and hoping for the best, even when you're terrified of the outcome. 

Speak the truth. Even when your voice shakes.  The time for change is always right now.

Decisions

I get so amazed with the decisions people make.  I can't believe how 'you decide' where you want to be in life, and sometimes, your decisions hurt others. 

I love winter.  I love that winter is coming for the mere fact of SNOWBOARDING.  How I love to be on the mountains, shredding through the powder.  I murk. ;) Anyways. although I love the season, I hate winter.  I hate how my life is so put off because my brother is home.  It really frustrates me.

Anyways, I'm mad today.  I don't normally share that. But today I wanted to.  Right now, I sure would love to get out of here and do something for me.  I don't want to put myself on hold anymore.  Hmmm... Maybe college somewhere else? Adventures.

Wow.. maybe I should just go run. 

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Pretty sure the countdown is on. Mom, dolly, and meg... You know. 7 days. Cross your fingers&make a wish!


p.s. there's hope.

.BrideWars.

DAULTON IS GETTING HITCHED!!!

Daulton will be walking down the aisle in NO time!! I'm so happy for her! Not only is this a fairytale because she's in love and all.  But it's even better because she's marrying my brother! For all you girls who say your best friend is like your sister, I win. My best friend IS my sister now. Boo ya.

Daulton is my absolute best friend.  She's my *elbow wrist wrist.  I love this girl. She's the smartest, prettiest, most talented, athletic, sympathetic, HILARIOUS. She beats everyone in my book.  Our lives have been fused together for the last 4 years.  Although she's one grade above me, we are only 2 months apart in age.  Guys.... she's the best.  Now, I could go on forever about how great she is, all the things we've been through together, and how she deserves the best.  But like I said, I could go on FOREVER! So to save you all that reading, just remember this, she's MY best friend.

Goose. Oh Goose! He's my older brother. He's my best friend. He's my hero.  I love him.  Goose has shaped me to be the best version of myself.  He never accepts anything less than that.  And I thank him for all the good work he's put into me. Out of all my siblings, Goose and I are probably the closest.  My family is REALLY close to one another, so that's saying something.  He and I just are so much alike.  We do so much toegether! We snowboard together (and we ROCK). We also love to do tricks on the tramp, play football, soccer, baseball, wiffle ball. We go to the river together, water ski, and hike.  We don't just do fun things together, we have a friendship.  Goose and I will sometimes get caught up and talk for hours.  He really is my hero.

About 2 years ago, I was a senior in high school and Daulton had already graduated.  Daulton and I felt that even though we were 'in two seperate worlds', we could make it through this horrid year of being seperated. Daulton was really close to my family.  She always came to family dinners, trips, and get togethers.  My family just loved her! As a joke, we would tease her that she and Goose were going to get married. (As a kid, us siblings developed a rule that we weren't allowed to date each others friends) It clearly was a joke because Kadell would never look twice at her.  Daulton had told me that both of my brothers are atractive, so I just KNEW that she had a little crush on him.  Well, that fall my dad really kept pushing the 'Daulton&Goose' thing.  Goose called me one night and he said, 'Shelb, I think I'm going to take Daulton on a date if that's okay with you. It'll get dad off my back and end this nonsense. But I need your permission, make sure it's okay with you.'  Of course I said yes! (I always knew they were meant to be together.)

Here we are, 2 years later, and they are in love.  Not just love.. The gross, sappy, makeyouwanttovommit love. Goose popped the big question about a week ago.  He and I went ring shopping, and believe me, I picked the prettiest ring for my bestie.  Next November they'll be hitched. In the meantime, I have a lot to do with her before she becomes Mrs. Deason.

Oh yeah.. She asked me to be her maid of honor.  And boy am I ready to do that! I'll be the most reliable, amazing, awesome, best maidofhonor EVER! :)

Congratulations Dolly, I'm so happy for you.

Sayin' Goodbye!

Tomorrow is my birthday. But maybe you are reading it tomorrow, so I guess I should say... Today is my birthday!!  I'm spending the day with my oh so closest loved ones.  Hopefully the day will be full of surprises, laughs, and amazing memories.  Goodbye teens, hello twenties.