Monday, November 21, 2011

WeekEND.

As you all know, Turkey day is around the corner.   I love the holidays.  After Thanksgiving, it's Christmas.  It's a great time for friends, family, no school, and snowboarding.  That's right.  Friday is the Canyons opening day. Yippppeeeeee.

Only 1 more day of school&2 more days of work. I can do it.  After that, my holidays and break will be spent playing football with family.  Catching up on my awesome book. Sitting by the fire playing games and talking with mom.  I'd like to go get a puppy.  Maybe my mom will actually let me this go around.  I want a chocolate lab and name him Hutch. So cute right? Or maybe I want a rottweiler after all.  The apple doesn't fall far from the tree (thanks mom).

Also, this weekend. I will take a glorious walk with my camera and find solitude in the weather.  It sure would be perfect with little Hutch by my side.

Anyways.

In honor of Thanksgiving.. I'm thankful for my mom.  She's the best lady out there.  I know many of you think I'm biased, but it's reality.  She's got a heart of gold.  

Other things I'm thankful for:

First and foremost, my family.
My best friends Daulton and Megan.
My kitty Lenny. I love him, I do.
The roof over my head and the shoes on my feet.
The mere fact that I am attending school.
I'm thankful for the obstacles that have been presented to challenge me at this time.
I'm thankful for My Boys.
ALL of YOU
Riki Laws and the true example that she is to me.
My. Kids.
Sleep. Food. Water. And candy:)
and for new opportunities.

Glasses up. Cheers people.  And Happy Holidays.

Friday, November 11, 2011

This Guy.

If you've ever watched/heard of baseball, you've most definitely heard of the term 'curveball'. In baseball this is the most crucial pitch.. I think.  As a batter, you watch the pitcher wondering when he'll throw it to you.  No matter how much you anticipate it, it still catches you off guard.  Sometimes the Pitcher will throw multiple curveballs in a row, or sometimes it's just the last strike to get the batter out.

As many of you have heard before, life is full of curveballs.  You may get a curveball multiple times in a row, but sometimes it's the ONE that catches you off guard the most, even when you were anticipating it.  My life is full of these random, crazy, curved roads.  I may never know when the 'curve' stops, but I somehow always make it through.  

I can only imagine what it feels like to be a batter striking out in a big game.  Like imagine the Red Sox against the Yankees, tied up.  Three on base with 2 outs and 2 strikes on the line.  This batter HAS to get an RBI or game over dude.  Be it as it's said, it's just a game.  But try telling THAT to the batter anticipating the pitcher's curveball.  I don't think HE think's it's JUST a game.

I'm going to use analogy's for the rest of this post. If you don't follow, consider it a good read. hahaha

Now I've been at the same game of 'baseball' for the past two years now.  My life has been full of the ups and downs, strike outs, RBI's, fly balls, and the one and only, curveball.  I've been so engrossed in this simple game, thinking it's the greatest thing of my life.  I've recently come to the bottom of the last inning, with 2 outs and 2 strikes.  

Strike One:
It was way back when.  I'd first met him and we were instantly friends.  I'd set him up with a couple of my friends, and OUR friendship only grew.  For years we fused our lives together every weekend and every activity/hobby we could.  Countless hours were spent laughing and sharing stories.  I can't even begin to tell you how much was shared.  He's my best friend.

Strike Two:
We were on a slippery slope. We fell down.  Believe me, it was a looooong way down, and we fell HARD.

Looking back on my 'game' I've realized just how much heart and dedication has been put into this.  I've done everything I can... I think.  But to me, it's not worth losing everything to just a game.  I think that I just took my 3rd strike.  

Strike Three:
Realizing that sometimes what you have to say isn't as important as the person you're saying it to.

Baseball is a tricky sport.  On the outside, most don't enjoy it.  But once you get into the heart and passion of the game, you can't help but fall in love.

Letting yourself be hurt by just a game may look silly to the outside world.  But in the moment, you're the only person who truly knows the heart you've put into just a 'simple' game.

I love my game of baseball.

Here's to the Night.

11.11.11
Tonight at 11:11 PM
Make the most EPIC wish ever.
Good luck.
:)

Monday, November 7, 2011

Right From My Heart.

My dad is an amazing guitarist.  Like blowyourfreakingmind good.  A couple years ago, for my birthday, my Mom and Dad purchased a guitar for me.  Ever since, my dad has patiently been teaching me.  I'm not as committed as I wish I would be.  I guess I'm afraid to dive into it.  But I'm not anymore. I love the guitar.  It's an amazing release.  This past weekend my dad helped me learn a couple songs, and I sure did fall in love. 

I seriously want to write a song.  But for me it has to be the perfect song.  I really respect artists whom write their own songs.  Example, John Mayer.  Look up all of his songs.  Holy ish, he did them ALL.  My favorite of his is Edge of Desire. You guys, it's lovely. 

Also, I want to curse out Cady Groves.  She is absolutely phenomenal.  Yet the thing with her, she always steals my lyrics, I swear it.  She speaks from my heart.  Look up her song "Life of a Pirate".. that is MY song.  Also, my new found favorite of hers, "Not Someone I'd Call my Friend".

.e.n.j.o.y.

Friday, November 4, 2011

At first I was really excited, then I wasn't so excited anymore.

Ya know that weird sensation when you KNOW things are about to change? For example. I remember graduating. I remember that slight feeling of dread because I KNEW change was here, and the scariest part of change, for me, is the unknown.  I didn't know what I was doing with my life, I didn't know where I was going, and mostly, I didn't know who I was.  That whole week of graduation, I was in freak out mode.  ANYTHING set me off; I seriously was so scared.  I really needed Peter Pan.


But look.... I graduated.  Even though I thought I wasn't ready for it, I did.  With my BEST friends beside me, we took that first step into the unknown.

I did it. Even though I kept repeating to myself, believing that I wasn't ready to move on, I did. The truth is I LOVED high school, but I would never go back.

Funny sidenote: I STILL don't know where I'm going. I STILL don't know what I want in life. And I STILL don't know exactly who I am.. but I'm okay with that.

Moral of the story: Sometimes being scared is all you have.  You may think that it isn't the right time to 'graduate', but if not now then when? Being a Super Senior is just as lame as not graduating at all.  Running from something that you are afraid of isn't right either. The right thing is taking the step and hoping for the best, even when you're terrified of the outcome. 

Speak the truth. Even when your voice shakes.  The time for change is always right now.